Saturday, January 24, 2009

The Funny Side of Irony

What makes us human? Our cunning ability to make the same mistake over and over again.

Time is gold yet not tangible enough at least for me, if not for all (obviously), to walk onto.

Why do we always long for times long been finished? If not for the memory, for the chip of that treasure we've spent on that shimmering something we mistook for happiness.

Regret makes us weak. Yet we know strength because we've been through the opposite.

And though we strive for success we are driven by the failures we wish we never had.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Economia de Filipinas

Economy, as I see, is a manifestation of a state’s primal need to survive. On the other hand, the government is created by those who believe in a unified approach in success. Yet another form of that primordial instinct to survive. Hence, by this basic transitivity, the government and its state’s economy is chained. Chained in the manner that the government, must, swiftly pull it’s economy to a long-term success and stable development. If so, then totalitarian would be the ideal government when economic development is concerned. If we follow such premise we arrive to something realizable given the preceding facts. True, if we’re dealing with a simple world with discrete truths and consequences with one factor as the government. But in reality, the government’s existence is only at its society’s mercy and that the economy is constituted with other factors. In the Philippines’ case its government plays as the guide, ideally, for private economies or individual market players that constitute to the whole of the country’s economy.

Growth and development is for and by the people. Growth in economic terms is the increase in the absolute value of real output measured by national income accounts. In the other hand, economic development is characterized by stable and increasing growth that usually inhibits socio-political changes. Hence, we can say that both ends of the so called development change is by far different in terms of growth, its peoples’ lifestyle and society itself. The question is, how can we develop? By the preceding facts, we can say that development is attained through growth which in part described by macroeconomic processes. Hence, the ’success’ of a state is defined by the state itself, that is, the people, its territory, sovereignty and its government. Here we can at least peek why governments such that of Russia, Romania, Czechoslovakia crumble grotesquely. Maybe, total control over a state in general violates the core foundation of growth and development, the people. Although totalitarianism is for equity, why do states in such governments slowly decapitate over time being left by democratic governments with free markets? By these facts and by trend, I say that free market is a prerequisite in development but not necessarily democracy.

Now that we have established the general role of the government, let us dissect its more specific jobs. Basically, the government’s task complements that of the people and its society’s. The society is self evolving and the government’s job is to stimulate and guide that evolution to development. This is absolutely true in the Philippines case given that we are comprised of a pyramid of groups and individuals constituting our baranggays, barrios, municipalities, labor unions, educational institutions, corporations etc. These entities are the major actors in this drama called economy by the government as the director to reach the end which is progress. The Philippine government’s answer to the problem of economic governance is the National Economic Development Authority (NEDA). NEDA was created for the purpose of having one planning head to assert problems of policy duplication and inconsistencies. But NEDA’s efforts are nothing if the voices of the people that constitutes the society is neglected. Indicative planning comes to action where individual market players including low-end producers discuss and share their idea of what the objectives should be for a strengthened economic future. This French way of development is adopted by our country for the historical lack of communication between the government planners and private entrepreneurs.

Yet, the innate social problem of equality and equity still lingers and plays a heavy burden in economic development. The income difference between the rich and poor is inherently oceans apart and yet to be resolved. Though we may say that the economic growth that the current Philippine regime boasts has increased the average income of its labor force, it still hasn’t changed the skewered statistics of large income standard deviation. In consequence, the poor is denied of a number of goods and services because of their low income. Following such argument, businesses are not able to thrive in places of low income distribution. If one should argue that the poor or at least the lower economic half of the Philippines is unable to climb the ladder is because they choose not to be competitive, he/she is impartially correct. It is true that the most basic rule of survival is to compete but the inevitability of failure is more likely to the poor majority. If to compete is to enter business, where will the poor get their capital? And if capital is not a problem, how about the taxes that larger businesses throw to smaller ones and to the people as a whole? At least we see that taxation which was devised to foster economic equity is doing its job quite well, sarcasm intended. If to compete is to strive for a better job, how can one earn sufficient income if the education that the government offer for free is the lowest in the country? And if to compete is to at least buy the most basic needs, where will they get the money? All of these questions are not answered by the society itself. It is not a part of that self evolving mechanism. It is the job of the government to provide answers to these questions. Even if true answers are not realizable and non-existent, there are always approximations.

By the year 1997, majority of East-Asian countries suffered from what was called the 1997 Asian Financial Crisis. The crisis was marked start when the Thai government floated its currency, bhat, following a burden of foreign debt. Although the presence of such crisis was known and felt by that time, reasons were not clear. But the fact that the Philippines, together with its neighboring countries, suffered a considerable decline in economic growth and national income accounts by 1997, we cannot extract the ‘true’ growth of our country just by comparing it to succeeding and current economic state. In other terms, the contemporary GDP/GNP growth of our country is not out of the ordinary because we are basically reviving, if not just revived, from the crisis. Compared to South Korea that, together with Thailand, suffered greatly from the 1997 crisis has recovered indifferently better than the Philippines. With respect to our society and the national income accounts of 1997 and 2007, our country has grown fairly well. But relative to other economies, we’re doing quite poor. Following these facts, we can say that GNP, GDP, GDP per capita and other income accounts are just really numbers that is freely given meaning depending on the perspective. Hence, these accounts can be used to blind people and to cover faults of crashing economies.

Numerous government policies have already been issued and presented. Most of it, if not all, are authored by well-educated people. Better education, free-enterprise-based stability, agricultural modernization, comprehensive human development and other policies have been laid down since the start of the new century. Still, the question is why can’t we feel the change? What the government fails to see is that our country is different from that of America, Japan or UK. That we have been deeply bruised by humiliation and stripped-off of self-reliance and confidence. How can we compete if we are not competitive in the first place? The government stimulates us by amplifying our dependency on others, pushing us out of the state, disintegrating our hopes to our country. Even if they flood us with macro policies in education, which the youth cries out for quality, if they do not promote nationalism and believe for one’s self, our country will really be just a human factory for developed economies. The government should foster its society’s culture and use it as a tool to communicate with its people. A tool to unite the different ethno-linguistic groups of our nation. The problem why we cannot have a successful nation as a whole is that we do not know what really is our nation. Different culture is not a problem, the problem is that we do not have one concrete unifying entity that believes on our talents and understands our weaknesses. Yes it should be the government, but the government is ever busy to how the Philippines should be seen fine from the outside, disregarding the immense wound in the inside. I am not a social scientist nor an economist to formulate some empirical policy to manifest what I write. What I have here is an abstract idea of what the Philippine government should be realizing that it is not impossible. Self-reliance, confidence and nationalism.

Society, economy and politics is inseparable. They constitute to what we call our nation. The idea of a government, unlike what we usually perceive, is not a static uniform social entity that is patterned exclusively with each other – different states. Hence, we cannot compare two governments by how they resolve one matter but should be compared by the ends. But society should also play its part by fostering its creation, which is the government, in times when it fails to care for the former. Funny, true, because in our country’s case it is more likely that an infinite loop is created. Exactly my point, self-reliance is inevitably the break.

The Vertigo of Certainty

Chaos and distress leave us with no choice but to think, dream and wonder about certainty and order. It is in these times of clattering questions we mostly dear for enlightenment and the warmth of such trivial intuitions. It is also in these times that we ironically create ideas of boundless measures, for chaos is anything but borders.

For most of us intellectually deprived of the fundamental roots of logic and mathematics, that has been there for ages, we believe that this world is in order or at least be organized when such glorious day comes. I do not know if it is the master plan of somebody all so powerful, like what we want to believe in, or it is just our own hypocritic understanding of such virtues that we fall into chaos.

Paradox as it may seem that order and chaos are related by such subtle boundaries of logic, we still strive for certainty. Hence we fall for the traps of the 20th century's urge for clarity on to the matters clearly logically proven as not. Mathematics has proven that logic and itself are bound by the foundations it created. As much as what Kurt Gödel's and Georg Cantor's experiences screamingly want to tell us that we are mere victims of the very foundations that we are humans, we still long for certainty.

Yet we have intuition. As abstract as the logic that it is not, it is inherently not the certainty that we were looking for. Either it is innately trivial and recursively as it is or we just fall along with the stubbornness the like of Hitler's. We just don't quit. Certainty is nothing but incomplete. But since we still believe that certainty is the asymptote of Moore's Law, it proves our inability to cope with the continuity and infinity of life and creation implied.

Though we know that not all problems are solved by the algorithms of our finite minds, as what Turing popularly synthesized, we still try. Why? Because we want to. We know we can. And though intuition itself is contradictory provable, we still cling to what we call God.

Either intuition created God or God created intuition to fill the gaps of our incomplete logic. Nobody would really know.

Note: I know I used "certainty" way too much. But that is exactly the point.

BBC's Dangerous Knowledge






Burned through the Chronograph

Naiinggit ako sa mga batang naglalaro sa kalye. Hinahamon ang mga aso. Nakikipagbunuan sa sasakyan. Nakikipagaway sa patak ng ulan. Sa mga pagkakataong matagal ng naiwan ng panahon sa isip ko, ngayon ay unti-unting bumabalik. Ang mga ngiting nilalabas ng mga labi sa tuwing manonood ng Dragonballs at Eugene. Isama mo na ang mga Paynal Pantasi na tinapos ko sa Playstation na hindi naman sa akin.

Simple lang ang mundo noong late 90's at early 2k, at least para sa akin. Bakit kaya ngayon imbes na ulan ang nilalabanan ko, sarili ko na. Imbes na sasakyan ang katumbang-preso, ibang tao ang katunggali. Lahat tayo gustong maging bata. Lahat tayo gustong bumalik.

Most people would go to their friends for comfort. But I tend to stay here in my room. Contemplating the things that there were and fantasizing the things that might possibly be. As I type, I hear a crow scream in vivid delight. It makes me realize that birds, even one of the most hated ones, survive amidst there lack of faith. What more of us as humans?

Knowledge grows faster than a tree can push itself to survive. Money is spent faster than it is earned. Dreams are created faster then the time we realize that it is not true. Yet we strive for perfection, salvation and eternal peace. Do we not know that these are all but dreams? But that is exactly what makes us strong and weak at the same time, hope. We hope that things will be better the time we stop crying. Love is undying, blind, never-ending and without reasons. Education is the way. Religion is the tier.

Maybe we are right. That every decision we make constitutes to something in the future. That time and everything that fades with it is unrecoverable. That every sliced and diced flesh, every pain we endured, every tears we drank, every people we killed are just mere memories of what we tend to forget. But we then realize that if these things have already faded why do they continue to hunt us down to the very core of our slumbers? Why do they return to us as screams of degraded hope that we wish we hadn't dreamed of as much as the thoughts of mortified things we should have done?

I have never been good with words. And definitely no better with actions. How I wish that time and space are not what Einstein thought they were.

Sometimes we laugh on the deepest and most lonely times of our lives. And those times are the best among the worsts. Each faint smile gives us strength. For each smirk that we taste our own tears, we become invincible for a fraction of the second we are weak.

i lurvesz NSO

to make the story short, ayaw kong magcurse pero tae napapamura ako sa gobyernong ito!

graduating ako at kailangan kong ayusin ung birth certificate ko na walang nakalagay na male ako. hahaha funny huh you bastard you! unless lalabas sa diploma ko na sex or gender unknown

pumunta pa nanay ko sa sen fernando, pampanga which is so freaking far away from paniqui, tarlac dahil nanakawan ang branch ng NSO sa tarlac

pagkatapos ng buong araw na pagbubuno ng nanay ko sa pila ay tae dahil wala paring nagbago sa sex ko kahit na 2 years ko nang inayos iyon bago ako lumipad! anak ng tokwa!

napakiusapan na gumawa ng sulat ang regional office sa ilocos noon para maayos iyong passport ko at ifoforward nalang daw or something sa Manila para maformalize way back early 2007!

ngayon ung birth certificate ko na hindi kinain ng tanghalian ng nanay ko ay ganoon paren 21 years AGO HOLY ..!

at isa pa ay iyonh kapatid kong 4 years old na wala pang Birth Certificate dahil hindi pa finorward ng local government dito sa paniqui!

note na inayos na namin ito matagal ng panahon dahil may kapaidad naman kaming mag-isip.

sa taas ng tax na binabayaran ng mga mamamayan naman! hindi man lang maaiayos ultimo website! hindi ka man lang makapagreklamo ng maayos!

ang mahirap pa ay kapag nagaayos ka ng mga papel ay kailangang laging may "put". nakakainis! hindi ba sila puinapasweldo at kailangang magabot palagi ng pera para maging maayos ung serbisyo nila?!

sawa na ako sa karereklamo, at kahit anong sigaw mo bingi naman ang lahat. walang kwenta ang pagbaabgo kung hindi itutulak ng lahat.

kung gusto natin ng pagbabago dapat talaga magsimula sa sarili, dahil may sarili din naman ang mga nasa taas.. mga nagkukunwang may pakialam.. nagkukunwang matatalino!

sa bagong taon

putok putok! sigawan at talunan. halakhakan at batian. kasiyahan at kabaliwan. samantalang ang ilan sa atin na katulad ko ay piniling matulog nang maaga.

hindi ko kasi nararamdaman ang pagiging bago ng taon o ang pagiging manigo nito. siguro sa isa o tatlo o limang aspeto na buhay pa ako, may lakas at ganoon din ang aking pamilya at salamt sa Dios sa lahat.

para sa akin, may nagrunong-runungang tao lang dati na nagsabi na bagong taon ang panahon na ganito pagkatapos ng 300+ days. at ayaw ko ng inuutusan ako.

hindi iba ang december 31 2008 sa january 1 2009. parang katulad ng september 26 at september 27 na bisperas ng birthday ko at bday ko respectively.

hindi ako mas maayos na tao ngaun kesa kahapon. siguro konti pero hindi uber. kagaya ng hindi naman ginaganap ang reunion pagkatapos mismo ng graduation.

hindi naman ako kj at umaayon din ako sa normal dahil hindi ako autistic. kailangan lang talaga ng tao ng isang pagkakataon sa bawat taon na ipaalala sa kanya kung gaano kahalaga ang isang abstract na konsepto. kung gaano kahalaga ang pamilya, buhay, pag-ibig, pera o kahit ang katiting na panahong nginiti sa 365 na unos. at wan port.

masaya ang ginugunita ang ginawa mo noong mismong isang taon ang lumipas. pero ginagawa ko iyon palagi dahil palagi akong nagpapasalmat sa kung ano ako. at malalman ko lang kung ano ako ngayon sa pagkukumpara sa kung ano ako noong isang taon.

mas mahalaga na rin siguro sa akin ang tulog kaysa sa pagtalon mindlessly. malamang gumagawa lang din ako ng dahilan na maging emo.

may sayawan pa sa plazang malapit sa amin noong january 1 ng gabi at buti ay maayos ang tulod ko bago iyon. wala na namang maproject ang mga local govt officials at nagpapasayaw nalang sila. instant pogi points iyon parang pagpapatayo ng basketbol court para sa mga cool na tao.

bakit kaya bulag sila sa mga sirang aspalto at misplaced na mga bgay sa kalsada. ang bagal ng development pero ok lang iyon dahil magaling magpaparty si kapitan at si mayor. wtf.

ganito parin taung mga pinoy, umaasa sa ibang tao. gustong may bumebeybi. hindi naman natin tayo masisisi dahil pagkatpos ng 300000 yrs ng espanyol (popularly known as kastila) eh sabay naman ang amerikano hanggang ngayon. kapit pa rin sa matatag. walang sariling paninindigan at ang nakakalungkot ok lang iyon. dahil ang may ibang paniniwala at iba ay loser at bading at hindi nakakakuha ng hot na babae.

kahit anong galing mag-segregeyt ng basura ni mama, ganoon naman ako ka hindi kaya babaguhin ko. kailan kaya natin makikita ang kahalgahan ng mga bgay na labas sa bilog na pamilya natin?

mayayabang ang lahat ng tao at mahilig manghusga sa inisyal na nakikita at aminado akong hindi ako banal o perpekto man. pero mas maganda siguro kung titigilan nating ikumpara ang sarili nating standard sa pagsukat ng tao. sino ba tayo para gumawa ng universal na rule sa pagiging tao? IEEE?

bihira rin ang pinoy na mahilig magbasa, statistically. wala akong sources at wag nio akong apuyin nang uncited information and generalization blaberi shit dahil gusto kong sabihing ganoon. mahilig lang taong gumawa at magbasa ng survey para bawasan ung buhay nating walang silbi

marami rin ang iniisip na importante sila at ganoon nalang sila magpaimportante lol. aminin natin na saka lang importante kung:
1. mayaman ka
2. may artistahin kang gf
3. hindi ka emo, kasi that's absolutely defeating the purpose
4. politiko ka down to being a kagawad
5. capable kang gumawa ng project without any sort of help from groupmates. benta ka grabe!
6. subrang gwapo o ganda mo na puede na kitang patayin sa insecurity at kawalan ng pag-asa sa buhay
7. mahilig kang magpautang AT mangutang
8. mahilig kang mag-blog sa bulletin board dahil mas mataas ang chance na basahin ng iba ang kayabangan mo by a slight fraction compared sa fs blog na hitiki sa features at napakabilis